I don’t want to change who you are, I don’t want to make you a better person, I don’t want to change you in any way. I want to be with you every moment that I can be. I want to see you even if it is just for 1 second. I want to be able to say, yeah we love each other without questioning if you feel it back. I want to be with you and only you. I don’t care for anyone else, except for you. you were the one that I could tell everything to and that’s the one thing nobody understood. I love you because I can be me and you can be you. Because you were always there, and if you weren’t, you came back. You were the only one who didnt judge me in any way. I remember every little conversation, every little look, every feeling. Its all here and always will be. I want you and only you. I need you and only you. I need to talk to you because lately theres been no one else to talk to. Only you would understand because you were there from the beginning. I know you need me to. But when will we figure things out? Or is it just going to be like this forever? I don’t know what to do. All I know is I need you. Its just too hard to do this on my own. All I need is to know.

It’s so hard to do this alone.

When does life end? How about right now? That’d be awesome

still not happy.

still pissed at everyone.

still hate life.

still wanna die.

One day you’ll fucking see and I’ll be gone before you know it. Fuck family. I hate you all.